For some time now, I have been experiencing a sense of unexplained feelings of emptiness. I am stuck in a void! I feel and see myself becoming increasingly frustrated, adjitated, and irritated with my job, coworkers, friends, and family.
I no longer enjoy nor look forwaed to my days at work. Feelings of job dissatisfaction, no advancement, just a dead end! I no longer feel a sense of belonging! I no longer care to be around the most of my cowokers, whom I have have known for the past three years and they have done nothing to me to make feel this way. I look forward to weekends and leave, as this is my relief. However, my rage soon reappears on Sunday evening just knowing that I have to go to work at the same place ans see ans deal with the same people.
It has become so noticeable that coworkers, friends, and family have started asking/ saying the following: "why are you in a bad mood, grumpy all the time, moody, ****y, act ****ed off all time to everyone/ thing, why do you always have an attitude, you never smile, you are not the same person you once were, you have changed, I have a bad attitude........etc........etc.
I took leave in June, down to the islands in the caribbean. While on leave, I felt like a whole "new" person. I was having a good time and feeling great. I returned to the person that I and others once known. I felt refreshed! However, soon after my return, my new upbeat, refreshed personality was sinking more and more each day. I try to keep a possitive outlook and attitude, but I am afraid that I have sank too far.
Guess I am stuck in a rut.
WHAT TO DO?
I don't know anymore!
I no longer enjoy nor look forwaed to my days at work. Feelings of job dissatisfaction, no advancement, just a dead end! I no longer feel a sense of belonging! I no longer care to be around the most of my cowokers, whom I have have known for the past three years and they have done nothing to me to make feel this way. I look forward to weekends and leave, as this is my relief. However, my rage soon reappears on Sunday evening just knowing that I have to go to work at the same place ans see ans deal with the same people.
It has become so noticeable that coworkers, friends, and family have started asking/ saying the following: "why are you in a bad mood, grumpy all the time, moody, ****y, act ****ed off all time to everyone/ thing, why do you always have an attitude, you never smile, you are not the same person you once were, you have changed, I have a bad attitude........etc........etc.
I took leave in June, down to the islands in the caribbean. While on leave, I felt like a whole "new" person. I was having a good time and feeling great. I returned to the person that I and others once known. I felt refreshed! However, soon after my return, my new upbeat, refreshed personality was sinking more and more each day. I try to keep a possitive outlook and attitude, but I am afraid that I have sank too far.
Guess I am stuck in a rut.
WHAT TO DO?
I don't know anymore!
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