I have a written and physical agility test tomorrow for one agency and I also have an oral board interview on Monday for another agency that I'm really stressing over. I've been trying to run and get prepared for the physical portion of the test that I have tomorrow but because I have such bad anxiety for the interview I haven't been eating much. In the past two weeks I've probably lost about 13 pounds. I'm 23 years old and feel like I'm in a mid-life crisis for crying out loud. I just feel like I'm under a lot of pressure.
I also think I'm just freaking out in general because I'm trying to decide if this is what I want to do for my career. I have my mixed feelings at times and think I would enjoy it but I also worry about the stress of the job and dangerousness at times. However, I feel like if I didn't go through with it I would be wondering the rest of my life whether or not I should have stuck with it to see what it's like. I also feel like if I didn't go through with it I would be letting my family and myself down since I've always expressed an interest in this profession, although my family supports me in whatever decision I make. I don't know if I'm just being a wuss and/or letting anxiety get the best of me.
I find myself comparing myself to a friend who went and got a trade and is now working for the state. I have given trade school a thought but of course there are no guarantees I would enjoy it if I pursued it. I've looked into other career paths but can't seem to find anything that I am 100% interested in. I think that now that it's time to decide on a career I'm just at a standstill and don't know what I want to do or where I want to go. Any words of advice are appreciated. Thank you.
I also think I'm just freaking out in general because I'm trying to decide if this is what I want to do for my career. I have my mixed feelings at times and think I would enjoy it but I also worry about the stress of the job and dangerousness at times. However, I feel like if I didn't go through with it I would be wondering the rest of my life whether or not I should have stuck with it to see what it's like. I also feel like if I didn't go through with it I would be letting my family and myself down since I've always expressed an interest in this profession, although my family supports me in whatever decision I make. I don't know if I'm just being a wuss and/or letting anxiety get the best of me.
I find myself comparing myself to a friend who went and got a trade and is now working for the state. I have given trade school a thought but of course there are no guarantees I would enjoy it if I pursued it. I've looked into other career paths but can't seem to find anything that I am 100% interested in. I think that now that it's time to decide on a career I'm just at a standstill and don't know what I want to do or where I want to go. Any words of advice are appreciated. Thank you.
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